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Made by God, for God.

"God is the reason why in every pain, I smile; in confusion, I understand; in betrayal, I trust; and in fear, I continue to fight."







Two years ago on Sunday, I won two gold medals in the British Taekwondo Championships. One month later, I became ill. Exactly one year ago today (September 10th 2012) I woke up unable to walk. I couldn’t stand, i couldn’t do anything. I was screaming in pain and i just remember how desperate me and my family felt. My body is now so scarred from my mental health plummeting after my ability to walk left me. I suffer from a rare genetic condition known as Ehlers Danlos Syndrome (EDS). I have secondary illnesses known as Reflex Neurovascular Dystrophy and Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome. I want to spread awareness of these conditions. I was 14 years old when I was told that I had EDS; by this point it had already attacked my entire body, causing permanent damage to my hand and taking away my ability to walk. I was scared, i remember not having a diagnosis, not understanding why I could no longer walk. I had only just turned 14 when I took my last steps. I have just turned 15 and I am trying so hard to stick with it. Life is difficult, but throw in something that stops you doing the things you love, and it can be hell. Please, reblog this. I want to spread awareness of this illness that cripples and disables people worldwide. 

EDS can take away you ability to walk?!

It can take away most things. I’m in a wheelchair half time now, when I used to just need a cane - and before that, no mobility aids at all. Eventually, I’m likely to be full time in a chair.

It can take away walking and using hands/arms, it can take away your vision, your ability to eat, and many other things. This is what I was ranting about last night, when people try to say ‘it’s not THAT bad’ because no, maybe it isn’t right NOW, but it can get to be that bad. It really can.

EDS is something that can literally take away the use of any part of your body. Collagen is everywhere. With a disorder that breaks down collagen, it has the potential to literally kill.

It can take away brain function. It can cause a person’s heart to explode. It can take away the physical ability to feel - or can cause you to physically feel too much (POTS in a nutshell). It can make your teeth rot more than usual, or make them fall out. It can cause reproductive system problems. It can cause to not be able to eat (already mentioned, yes?). It can cause blindness, deafness, the loss of the ability to breathe… It can make it impossible to stand, sit, or lay down - depending on what it attacks.

The scary part? All of this can happen overnight. 

About a month ago, I went to bed, like normal. Just to take a nap. Middle of the afternoon, an hour to myself, so I took advantage of it. When I woke up, my glasses didn’t work right. Sometime within that hour, my corneas had moved again. 

This is a serious disorder.

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EDS awareness

i should probably add that by now it has left me completely bed bound due to my brain stem and spinal cord. this disease can be incredibly serious. thank you for reblogging my post

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a desire for our own far-off country… The scent of a flower we have not found, the echo of a tune we have not heard, news from a country we have never visited.

—    C.S. Lewis describing his longing for Something more when he was still an atheist. (via nineteengoingon20)

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Everyone feels benevolent if nothing happens to be annoying him at the moment. Thus a man easily comes to console himself for all his other vices by a conviction that ‘his heart’s in the right place’ and ‘he wouldn’t hurt a fly,’ though in fact he has never made the slightest sacrifice for a fellow creature. We think we are kind when we are only happy: it is not so easy, on the same grounds, to imagine oneself temperate, chaste, or humble.

—    C.S. Lewis, The Problem With Pain (via craigtowens)

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'Please,' she said [to Aslan], 'You're so beautiful. You may eat me if you like. I'd rather be eaten by you than fed by anyone else.'

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"No one will miss me", "I’m better off dead"


When I worked at a non-profit that handled suicide prevention, I had access to the donation records. Each month, a specific man donated 15$ to our organization. It was like clockwork.. same day, same man, he had been doing this for over 4 years. It always seemed odd to me but I never questioned it… until I saw a note attached one month. "For Noah- Dad"

his donation was once his child’s allowance.

I can promise you, they would miss you for the rest of their lives.

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